I ran into someone that I... I ruined his life, Eames. He.. he d-did this to me because I deserve this and so much worse. I... I c-caused him a lifetime of pain and suffering. He lost his whole family because of me. He lost his childhood because of me. He lost everything because of me.

I ruin everything good, Eames. I'm not allowed to let myself have this. I can't-- I can't have this. It's not right.